I'm not sure how I'm coping. I think I'm coping through denial/dissociation, and then just under that layer is anger/disgust, and then just under that layer is avoidance/anger, and then just under that layer is helplessness/desperation/depression, and then under that layer is this OCD/anxiety screaming to do more cleaning and organizing. But then my CFS/ME fatigued, middle-aged body is tired and just wants to sleep and consider this a nightmare.