I had suicidal thoughts as a teen, 14 to be exact same age my son died of suicide. I knew my parents would be devastated so I suffered in silence. I was diagnosed psychophrenic age 32, than schizoaffective, now bipolar with psychosis

I respond well to meds. Basically take them to avoid psychosis i could care less about mania or depression. i usually push through depression manic makes me a risk taker and more creative. but psychosis ruins my life.