Hi Suzy5654, thank you for your concern...and opinion! First, separated and living in the same house means that I have told him our marriage is over, but because I am in the last few weeks of a very difficult pregnancy, we have no family within 2000 miles, and no real "close friends" here to speak of, we are living together but in separate bedrooms. I am having a c-section and hysterectomy on June 10th, and we do have family coming down for a few weeks, but I'll need help with the three kids past that. I have also been a stay at home mom for the last five years, so I will have to re-establish myself in the work force before I change anyones living arrangements. I am like you, I would rather be alone than with someone who hurts me, but I want to make sure I do right by the kids as well.

That being said however, I love my husband very much. I don't believe he is an evil person, just a damaged one. He is actively seeking help through a counsellor, and has even joined this forum to search for his own answers. I have established a new "friendship" with him, as I believe I owe it to my children to try and support him in his quest to become a better person. He tells me everyday that he believes this marriage can be saved, and he will prove to me before I have a chance to leave that he can/will/has changed. We agree the relationship that we both knew as our marriage for six years is over, and he insists that from now on that he wants to be a 100% honest person, not just with me, but in every aspect of his life. For the kids sake, I hope he can find his way. As far as "we" are concerned, I have no bets on the table, and don't dare let myself hope for anything in the future.

So for now, I have established my "leaving plan", and I am getting ready to meet this beautiful little girl I am carrying. I do have a therapist, a wonderful mother and great friends who are supporting me through everything, and I know everything will eventually work out the way it's supposed to. I will have the peace and peace of mind I deserve, for myself and my children.

Thanks again for your words of comfort.