Dear T,
Had a total panicky, sobbing meltdown when it was time for me to head out to my in-laws'. I think it's anxiety about having to be social plus eating in front of them, because anxiety/stress/depression kills my appetite. Maybe some of the agoraphobia coming back, too? Didn't help that I saw our state's updated county case numbers. I think it was also triggered by my roasted veggies shrinking more than I'd expected, so my side dish that was specifically requested looked pathetic (I hadn't made it in 2 years).

H is being incredibly understanding, and I'm just going to stop over there for the gift-opening portion. I'm not sure how I'll get through the festivities at my parents' tomorrow, but I feel like I don't really have a choice there.


I hope you're having a fun, relaxing time. I wish I could talk to you, but there's no way I'd contact you right now. I'm going to let you have your much-needed, much-deserved time away from your practice.

Love,
LT