im just sinking into depression sunrise... i get an hour or so here or there where i can keep my mood above the horizon but it always sinks.. and deeper. today i had the grand accomplishment of riding the bus downtown and getting a hot dog. i feed the bun to the birds. It was all i could manage.

normally i would just try my best to accept that was where i was at... but i cant. My life is hanging by some pretty thin financial threads and i just cant have days where i dont get anything done. i just cant.

so the more i think about that, the deeper i sink.

depression and anxiety hand in hand

im sorry lauren.. i wish i knew what to say.. other than it is 11 days for me now... so 12 for you?

the one good spot... notice my faith in T has not drifted like i said. i still trust him.