Hey DPM,
I'm sorry things are so rough for you right now. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.

First thing I'd do is take out a deferment on my school loans. That's easy to do. Have you talked to your doc about meds? I would think some short-term something should be able to help with your anxiety so you can keep functioning. Damn, I can feel your pain.

What about just a LOA? That way you'd be proving to your boss that you want to keep your job, that you're going to do everything to take care of yourself and that you'll be back with bells on. Is that a possibility? Or, does your job just suck so bad you don't want to keep doing it? Then perhaps, maybe it's time to look for a different one? I dunno. Any job that would make me think suicide has potential would make me head straight for the want ads!

Do you have a rich relative you can borrow money from to keep you afloat while you look for something else? If you live alone, could you rent out a bedroom to a college student to lessen your mortgage?

I sure wish I had some answers for you. I hate to hear of your suffering. Please let me know if I can lend an ear anytime.
Love,
Okie