Hi I am the youngest in a family of 5
my older brother died I thought I was going to to explode complicated grief they label it
then my dad died slowly of cancer a counselor told me I was not dying duh but it was nice to hear
brother did not go to memorial
father did not go to say goodbye but went to memorial
btw my family is toxic they are codependent esp remaining brother mom and sister in law

ok so now this might help
my mom broke her efemur recently long story short recently I thought she was dead
for bout 3 days until I heard back from her,
During that time I do dream work to keep my authenticity in tact btw
I dreamed of purple flowers got that interpreted and it was a dream of my highest self
of my growth and glory andy royalty all good things

my mom and me are in a toxic relationship
my mom is dead to me already as well even before I thought she was and the dream
so because of the dream I am actually looking forward to her dropping dead for many reasons
no more toxic and only good things lie ahead!!

i hope this helps
are there any counselors in here? to give us a professional opinion?
thanks