I never watched any Christmas movies or shows this year.

I've been dealing with triggers this week, but I don't know what's triggering me. All I know is that I feel anxious and sad and upset. I've always struggled with some triggers around Christmastime - even before the pandemic, so I know it's not only the pandemic that has me worried.

I'm also dealing with this pandemic.

I spent most of my Christmas cleaning and organizing to distract. I tried to come online, but I kept getting triggered for some reason. So I avoided all online activity for a while.