It’s sad that your dad prefer to spend his nights with that than with his own daughter. Really sad. And I guess anything I try to write here maybe won’t make you any better.

But that you’re “unwanted”? “Not good enough”? No. You’re not. And you will NEVER be. So please tell those voices or whoever keeps saying you that to piss off for good! WhatEVER you do - do NOT give up! You hear me? DON’T give up!

I wish I could explain you in what position I myself am into since some months ago this year, and a part of me also wanted to just give up. But I won’t! I won’t because my life matters just as those jerks who made almost my entire year to living hell.

So Laura, don’t you give up. Listen at mindfulness (I have WhiteNoise and I recommend it - it’s cheap and on AppStore/Play Market). Go out and just be around with people - even if you won’t say anything to them. Perhaps smile at someone to see if they will smile back. Coffee-shop and go for a coffee? I had many with myself. Maybe someone will come and talk? I usually talked with the staff but that’s me.[emoji38] If you’re living near nature, go out and do this:

1) Lean to the biggest tree you can see with your back

2) Close your eyes and hug the tree around (arms all out)

3) Listen to the sound from the nature only for 60s. What do you hear? What bird? Wind? How was it?

The thing with this is that the tree drains all negative energy from your body and you get the tree’s energy instead. This thing have my mother learnt me and when I was very fragile back in the days. And I did this so many times. Even today.

I hope I could give some kind support, Laura. Have a nice weekend and try please to enjoy the holidays.[emoji120]

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