I have been where you are (meds weren't even mine) and the biggest fear on my mind at the time was that they probably wouldn't work and I'd just wind up in a psych wing for a few days and come out with a lot of explaining to do. You did the right thing by contacting the people who can help you, what better hands can you put yourself in than the ones who are equipped to guide you through your pain. I'm sorry I don't have some real wisdom to offer, just know that I feel for you and hope your despair lessons more and more until it's completely gone.