The best way to get through a breakup with a friend, in this case, would be to do what you're doing - reach out online for support. Perhaps find better friends that are more in tune with what you're looking for in friendships.

I've had to let go of some friendships because they were triggering, toxic, abusive, or just not something I was comfortable with. I'd still be cordial and say hi, but I wouldn't be quick to hang out or anything. There are only a few friends I would get "close" to, though I don't let anyone get too close. I've got too many physical disabilities that some people don't understand, so I try to stick closest with those who do understand.

I heard a friend once tell me to "find my tribe." I had no idea what that meant until years later. It's a group of people who are somewhat close to you, who you can reciprocate a good give-and-take relationship - you both help one another, you both know how to be accountable after getting to know one another for about 3 months to 9 months, and you don't rush things. I've had friends my entire life, some that I've known for over 20 years. I'm not close close, but I'm close enough to be able to reach out to them for some things. Most of my intimate things are shared in anonymity on groups like this or in my T's office. It's not the same as real-life friendships, where people know my real name and identity.

So this space is safe for that reason, but in real life, there are wonderful friends who will have that right balance for you, and share some common interests.

I hope you find healthier friends! It seems like you're doing the right thing by not being weighed down by a relationship that's gone sideways. Sometimes relationships ebb and flow, but you tend to know which ones are more in tune with who you are and what you need. There are friends you can make for life, too. Those are rare gems, but you will find them!