She has fought cancer for most of the year that I have worked for the ICF-MR where I am currently employed. She is mentally retarded. She hates hospitals and doctors....unless they're cute guys. But now she is dying. The cancer is killing her. She is DNR and her family has given her permission to go. They also said no more hospital visits...juts peace for her. But shes not at peace. Shes suffering.
As much as I love her and as close as I have been with her this last year, I am ashamed to say I haven't visited her in over a few weeks. I cannot bear to see her suffering and unable to leave her room. But, now I know I have to. I have to let her know I love her and I am there if she needs an HA to hang out with her and watch a movie. A co-worker and I bought about 4 princess books earlier bc she requested them. I am going to see her tomorrow and will continue to do sp until she passes into peace. I am so saddened and scared. I am trying to be prepared for it. b/c I know it will be very soon, but are we ever ready?

I'm not. Hugs...please????