My Support Forums - View Single Post - Bipolar check-in #61

MuddyBoots · Dec 27, 2021, 01:02 PM

What's up guys? I'm doing simultaneously better and worse, which probably means January's annual manic episode will be mixed if I'm not there already..

Possible trigger:

]I've switched back from binging/purging to restricting and cutting. Compulsory showers because I feel llike a dirty no good *****. Nightly nightmares reminding me why. I kinda did two separate half-assed "I'd be okay if I'd die from this" actions that I really hope my therapist doesn't consider sui attempts. Basically took a bunch of sedatives and went a lil crazy with the cutting. I'm hanging out with opiate addicts again but I think I'll stop that because I know relapsing will only make things worse.

But it's all fine. I'm starting prazosin (for the nightmares) tonight and naltrexone (for general "obsessive-compulsive behaviors") tomorrow. I was supposed to start last week but couldn't pick up my meds. This whole pharmacy only open 9-5 (but closed for an hour for lunch) Mon thru Fri thing sucks. I hope my T doesn't try to throw an IEA on me again today.