You're in a state that I mostly got out of - I feel you when reading this. Olanzepine helped me greatly.. I'm not sure what else would have worked. For me, it was caused by psilocybin-PTSD. So trauma causes this stuff.

An advice, from me, would be to try and be curious.. It's hard to be curious with this - Especially if you're depressed. Analyze every thought, feeling or experience..

Know your worth for what it is - It doesn't have to be mania.. But learn, absorb as much information.

Religion, just like anything else - If you're having a good time, it's good. You know when a religion dies is when people are thinking that it's a complete joke and messing around - But also when it's taken a little seriously, a touch, is good.. We intellectually analyze things to death as well which isn't good. It's all philosophical. All of life.

But think of small ways to improve. Don't give up hope. Life isn't supposed to be fear, dissociation and panic. We're supposed to FEEL.. things that are REAL.. Or idealize, dream and make the dreams into reality. I wish the best for you with much love, from us all here.

I had anhedonia with Job - He went through some really crazy **** as well.

I need to pick up my meds tomorrow too - It's supposed to be easy. I know how hard it can be - But people usually are in their own heads and aren't concerned with anything but themselves. Try not to worry - You'll be very much OK =]