I am so sorry that you are going through this ordeal. It is so difficult to feel good when one doesn't know what direction to take.

Although I am not in your shoes and wouldn't want to trespass on the uniqueness of your life and experience, I have been in a similar situation to the one you describe.

A good friend of mine was a Pharm Tech. He was in the last year of his Pharm D program and worked in a retail chain. One night when he was leavingwork, he took a package of little donuts. What he did was caught on a security camera and he was fired. Luckily his employer did not seek to prosecute him. His pharmacy career was pretty much over after that. Luckily he got a job in state government and is doing very well now.

I imagine that being a Pharm Tech is very stressful. I am thankful that there are such people in the world but I don't think I could handle a job like that. I hope you find something that you find worthwhile and fulfilling. Sorry I don't know how to be helpful to you. Hopefully others here will have better words for you than my poor words!