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Originally Posted by zapatoes
Ok, and don’t want to feel things at all. But feelings are below the surface maybe, stress with a sore jaw. Sadness with just a flat feeling instead to numb it all out. Why feel, why not just get into get things done mode, block it out, it’s not there. Maybe it’s at the back burner, waiting, to surface again when least expected, or when it’s ok.
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I've been there with the feelings just under the surface. You're not really "numb," but you're not really "emotional" either. It's a strange place of "limbo" to be in.
I hope you feel better. If you have a T, then maybe speaking about these issues with the T could help you.
I have difficulty with expressing emotions, even though I feel them on the inside. I much prefer to process emotional expression with my T than by myself or anyone else. I heard that it is healthy when you have safe, validating, and trustworthy friends in person to witness your emotions and comfort you, but it's hard when you really don't trust anyone and have a history of child abuse or neglect in the past.