@buddha1too, I've been quite concerned for others, too. It greatly saddens me that outside of the limited support we can all give each other here, there's clearly insufficient support from some mental healthcare providers. Such providers' support is crucial. I have lost count of members here who can't get medication refills on time, can't get proper medications that help, have resorted to wanting to quit medications and/or therapy, or use them only as "prns". These crucial needs are ones WE HERE can't solve for each other. One has to sometimes fight for their own best interests. And I know that's very difficult when one is feeling unwell and the system is rigged against them. The stressors we have necessitate a "village of support". Frequently people are too alone and comparatively powerless. Sucks but is the reality.

I'm one of the lucky ones in this respect. I had a good mental healthcare team. I now live in a country where my earnings go further, and again have a good mental healthcare team. I have securities now in Czech Republic that I didn't have in the US. But I still have some silent tears. I am American and loved my country, with it's beauties AND its ugly features. I struggle to transition to a new culture and language. I'm lucky I'm a realist, though. I have to do what works best for me, despite sacrifices and losses. These are wide and varied. I continue to strive and learn, and try not to repeat past mistakes.