**** Bipolar. **** Schizophrenia. **** SZA. I give up. I'm digging a hole and sitting in it until further notice. I've ruined us financially and I want to continue to spend. I'm isolated because they're watching **** that can trigger unrealistic thoughts. So I'm here with my loud *** headphones not even capable of playing the sims. I'm Sick of seeing little things that neurotypical people don't struggle with as accomplishments. I was suppose to be someone.