I strained the muscles in my low back while shoveling snow a few days ago. (Low back problems have been a perennial challenge for me.) And while I'm struggling to recover from one of these strains, I always find my levels of generalized fear and paranoia increase. Plus several people my spouse knows have developed serious medical problems recently (not Covid related... old-age kinds of stuff.) So it feels sort-of like trouble is swirling all around us (not to mention all of the violent crime that seems to be rampant recently where we live.) It's all making me wonder how soon it will be before our number comes up and to want to withdraw even deeper into my own "little" world. I wish I could be more positive. But that's the way it is now.