@Breaking Dawn - oh, my dear friend, yes, we are all still here and very alive.

((((safe hugs))))

When was the last time you were outside for a walk? Or safe and masked and social distanced outside with someone else who was fully vaccinated and masked and social distanced outside?

When was the last time you zoomed or facetimed or video chatted with someone so that you could see a human face on your screen?

Such social interactions are necessary so you don't fall into the kind of psychotic break that many prison and jail inmates in seclusion cells have to deal with. It kind of sounds like that is what you're going through. I think there's also elderly people who go through that when they are left alone for hours at a time and confined to their rooms day in and day out, with no one to even take them for a stroll in their wheelchair or bed outside, while in a nursing/rest home. It's sad because many elderly are also experiencing psychotic breaks from their nursing home experiences during this ongoing pandemic. I wish I could be one of the brave ones and visit them, since I'm super careful and fully vaccinated and masked, more so than the 60% or more of the workers who remain unvaccinated in our state and in nursing home areas because they were able to get a (fake) excuse to remain unvaccinated while wearing the thinnest mask possible for their jobs. I feel so bad for them, too.

But back to you, Breaking Dawn. I know you've been struggling a lot lately. I've read some of your posts and tried to keep up with the newer posts from as many people that I've gotten to know. And thank you for encouraging me to come to this forum. I will forever be grateful for that.

I just hope you are okay, and I hope you know you can always private message me. (((safe hugs)))

If it's not isolation, then it could be this overall pandemic and other stressors building on top of one another. Prolonged stress wears us down - both physically and mentally. It's no wonder that this world is all experiencing higher levels of stress each and every year we have to deal with these things. This is when finding a mental health specialist is important - even one that you can see for a short while, if you can afford it. Some people can only afford once or twice a month, so they find a T who can accept them for that. Some people can find a T who does a sliding scale and who can see them weekly. I hope you can find a T to help you, if you don't already have one.

Hang in there.

Also, there are many crisis lines, hotlines, and warm lines you can call to help you find some comfort. If you would like I can post them here or in a private message for you??

(((safe hugs)))