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Old May 23, 2008, 10:22 AM
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Kendyll Kendyll is offline
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Location: Midwest USA
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Since I'm still learning a lot of things, I want to ask you guys if I'm not quite on base about something.

Fact: I'm dating a guy.
Fact: we've been dating for about two weeks.
Fact: he's been divorced for over two years.
Fact: he and his ex get along OK still 'cause they've got kids.
Fact. He hasn't told her about me yet.

Thought: I'm not worth mentioning.
Thought: he still loves her and wants her back.
Thought: he's probably still screwing her.
Thought: he's just playing me.
Thought: it's all a f%&$ing lie.

I think I'm overreacting a little bit. I have NO evidence for ANY of those thoughts, and when we talk about those things, he says quite the opposite. His actions don't match my fears, either. A couple of weeks may really be too soon to bring another relationship into the fray. After a couple of weeks, is it really a realtionship?

I'm confused and my head hurts. I think I'm just being paranoid, but paranoia seems more real than reality sometimes. I think I'm headed in a downswing with my cyclothymia, too. I don't want to freak out over something that really isn't a big deal, but I don't want to follow blindly and get played again. And I don't understand...I'm scared. I hope I'm just making all the bad stuff up.
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