I sometimes feel like that, but then I realize that I have more than many others have. I like your idea of a gratitude list. That seems to help me more than the downward or upward comparisons.

The fact that you faced some of your fears and did a lot to cope well with many hard feelings and internal conflicts is something to be proud of. Those are huge accomplishments! Many people aren't as far along in the healing journey as you are! Sometimes I lose it at times, even though I may appear verbally as someone positive (I'm really not; I'm more pessimistic and paranoid than ever in real life or behind the scenes).

I don't see you as a failure. I see you as someone who has been hurt, and as someone who needs more love, care, support, and opportunities.

Here's to a better new year!