I wish I kinda were attracted to you because I feel like the song Stay With Me. The part that goes "but I still need love cause I'm just a man" not being attracted to anyone whos currently in my life but still having feelings for someone whos not honestly kinda sucks.

I just checked facebook and today is the 2 year anniversary of me discovering those mint candy bars that remind me so much about my transfernce T. If my stomach wasn't on fire with who knows what I might eat one right now.

I ate one and I feel better. I didn't tell my mom the reason I was eating them. But she seems to think the sugar made me feel physically better vs an increase in my endorphins type thing because of depression. And to be honest after switching from regular to zero sugar soda she may not be wrong that the candy bars legit make me feel better physically and not emotionally.