I am 40 years old. Unemployed. Have no friends. Have never been in a relationship. I have no emotional support from family. I want to get out and get any job because I have little money left in the bank, but I am germophobic, and still scared of contracting covid-19, and I am not sure how my body would react to it. I am not social. Employers think I cannot do anything. My family blame me for all my problems. When I told my older brother I feel lonely and no one from my siblings asked about me in Christmas, he replied: "You have a huge mental health problem. Go and see a doctor". I know I have some mental health issues, like debilitating depression and anxieties, but saying that "I have a huge mental health problem" was meant as an insult, an equivalent for "you are crazy". A small gesture from my siblings like saying "Merry Christmas" would have made a huge difference in my life. I am usually proactive and say "Merry Christmas" to them, but this year I felt I have failed miserably in life, and all my efforts are not working, and didn't feel like I am in a position to be proactive.