Why do I want to be attracted to people but not actually be in a relationship with them? Like I dont want to have sex with anyone. The idea grosses me out. But I want to have a crush on someone and I mainly just want someone to say random **** that will turn me on. All transference T would have to say would be "hello" and I'd automatically cream my jeans. But the idea of actually being in a relationship or any type of physical contact with her wasnt what I wanted.

I don't know how to explain what I want. I don't want a relationship I just want to get turned on by people. Like what is love to me?