It's the wee early hours of Christmas eve, precisely 3:30am
And I'm sitting in the dark crying and having a meltdown again...

That makes a total of 5 and counting today already...

The cheer...
The holiday spirit...
The songs....
Everything is just too much...

The song,

"I'll be home for Christmas"
Is the knife twisted in the heart.


"If only in my dreams. "