My brother has really bad OCD but he stays up late and does his rituals between 12-3AM. So he woke me up at midnight making a lot of noise washing his hands. I had my door closed and my head phones in too. I got out of bed and yelled at him and he just stared at me. I went back to bed but I knew it was useless. So I had a Poptart and a few zero sugar sodas. Then I had a protein shake. I got up at 5:50 and I took a shower. I'm trying to watch TV but the sound is cutting in and out and I keep missing stuff. I told my mom when she woke up that I've been up since midnight because of him and she was actually apolgetic this time instead of making excuses for him or getting annoyed at me. Although she still probably wont do anything about it. I knew I should have taken an extra melatonin though. That may have helped.

Today I just feel off from the lack of sleep and all the caffeine I drank to deal with the tiredness, and everything is just causing an increase in anxiety for me. Hopefully the day gets better. I took a valium and ate some chicken nuggets.