Its just lack of sleep and caffeine thats causing the anxiety. Nothing else. Theres no transference T **** going on, no current T stuff going on, no Amazon or other package headache. I'm not phyiscally sick. I'm not overly concerned about current events. Its just being sleep deprived and too much caffeine. But I wish my mom would do something to help my brother. Although she did finally make him a doctors appointment. So thats a start.

Jimmy Johns has their sandwhiches BOGO 50%. So I just ordered an extra turkey no mayo on sliced wheat bread and then a no mayo extra turkey unwhich. That mayo really adds up the calories. I get extra meat instead of the mayo and Its still less calories then with the mayo. I said I wouldnt focus on dieting today but I can't help it. My body shape is really getting to be like a mans and I have heard that can happen to some trans men after they get a hystrectomy their body shape changes. But I noticed it about a week ago that I seem very narrow and I dont have any hips. Not that there was much there to begin with. I have pictures of me before I started my transition where I looked like a guy. I did tell a couple managers before I left work that I was trans and was starting my transition and they were all like "ok." And were pretty emotionless about it. Now I'm wondering if they had already figured it out awhile ago before I told them.