i just saw a facebook thingie asking the question if you had the chance to go back would you marry your spouse again? I can't answer that there because he might see it so I'ma answer it here. NO I would not. I would not marry anyone. I would stay single. And maybe this is a little part of why I felt so driven to end therapy with you. Because eventually we would have come back around to 'that' subject and... what if one of these times I actually did get strong enough to leave him? I don't necessarily want to start over as single at almost 60 years old. But......

eta: i'm probably only even thinking this way because i'm annoyed at the butthead right now.