Dear T:



Don't know if I should text you or what. It's not like I will be able to talk to you tonight anyway. I have stupid Aftercare. Maybe I will just wait until after that and see how I am feeling. I should text the crisis line but I don't have time for a lengthy conversation with them either before Aftercare. I wish I didn't have aftercare tonight because then I could take care of this stuff. But I do have aftercare and I need to go to it. Maybe it will help. I don't know. It is on sustaining recovery. But none of the Ted Talk videos we watch are really on recovery at all. ;(


I do not want to have to get on Zoom tonight and say that I am having safety concerns. I should just keep my mouth shut. I will have to answer yes or no and I hate to lie. But if I do give in, I'm not going to tell them because of that stupid contract they had me sign.


This sucks.


xoxoxo


Kit.