I didnt sleep the greatest again. I fell asleep from 7-2:15. I took some extra stuff but it didnt help me sleep better or make me feel better today like it normally does. My mom is really notcing my valium issue now and she just told me now to be careful with them. I got out of the house because I wont want to go out this weekend. I didnt find the shirts I was looking for but I found some mega Goldfish crackers and a piece of rainbow cake I cut into 4 slices when I got home. I'm not sure whats up with my mood today. I'm crabby but for no real reason. It hasn't been therapy related in awhile and if its not threapy related then I'm just at a loss about why I feel this way.

I don't know. Maybe all this caffeine is just getting to me. It sucks to have both a benzo and a caffeine addiction. Plus sleep issues on top of it. Where do I even begin to fix things. At least I'm not fat.

I looked at my food log and realized I have had nothing but, crackers, that small piece of cake, and one egg bite today. And I had a ton of zero sugar sodas and an iced tea. So I just ate 2 pouches of tuna and I feel better anxiety wise. But I'm still tired.