I didn't SH. I contracted with my T from 3:30 PM yesterday to 9 AM today that I wouldn't engage in any SH behaviors. It was hard because I am still getting to know this T and I was putting trust and faith in her....well really in me that my promise to her would stand. It was hard for a bit because I was like, I don't care if I break my promise to her--because I don't really know her yet, but I made myself hold onto the promise and I kept the amount of time intentionally short so that way if I changed my mind after 9 AM and decided to SH I could. I told her on text that I made it through. I might need to contract again this weekend but we'll see. I don't like contracting unless I am at the absolute end of my rope because it takes my options away and I don't like that. But sometimes it is the only thing that can get me through.