I didn't like the destruction that I caused to myself. But it had to be done - Because of trauma. My mom passed her trauma onto me.



She said that all she knows of what love is - Is from my grandmother. She chose asshole men like what happened in 2020. I had to take care of her when she took a friends Tramadol while drunk. I haven't felt as bad as I have that day. She cried in front of me and my sister saying "I'm a bad mother".

And recently I've been lashing out at her and she must feel awful. I wanted to stand up to myself and my sister to her ex and I can't go back and do that so I have so much regret. I need to stop and just be happy. It's extremely sad.