My goodness, it appears that you knew what you were doing after all when you said no to the letter and suggested that I write it to myself! Go figure! (That's a joke, my dear L.) I feel like writing the letter last night gave me a little more closure. The best part is it even 'sounds' like you. Not difficult, as I have your voice in my head and stuff. I am SO glad that you suggested I write it to myself. I don't think I would have thought of doing that. It was a helpful exercise.

eta: it is also not lost on me that if I hadn't asked for it in the first place, you never would have suggested that I write it myself. So even though you said no, something good still came of me asking for what I needed/wanted.