Dear T,
For some reason, this seems like an odd thing to say, but I'm glad you said you could tell that I'm not doing well. Because it shows that you know me and will pick up on things, even if I'm like, "Oh, I did yoga the other day and also won both fantasy football leagues." That you're aware of what's beneath the surface, what I'm maybe not saying. Though I have been pretty weepy in the last couple sessions, so I guess I'm not hiding it that well. But still, sometimes I'm weepy about particular topics even though I'm mostly doing fine.

I do wish we could chat at times without the set time constraints, like I said, but of course I understand why they're there. It's just everything doesn't fit neatly into 50 minutes.

But I think sharing my "agenda" on the days that I have one at the start of session, as you suggested, might help. It was a good observation that my being aware of and making note of the time seems to make me more anxious rather than helping. And trying to cram in those last items, that might not be the best thing. Unless they're just like a one-sentence update. Maybe you can help me prioritize? Though sometimes my agenda items (like today) are pretty vague, so you'd have no idea for some the emotional weight or meaning. Maybe I should try to add those on, like that could be a good exercise for me before session.

Love,
LT