I am disappointed with my life. Never had I imagined this would be my life. I am scared. I wish I could wake up from my nightmare. Every dream I wanted has about shattered. Now I am stuck living with my friend who annoys me with his antivaxx and scamdemic beliefs. I can't stand having a conversation with him as we have nothing in common but he provides a place for me to stay and cooks and cleans for me. I try to be appreciative of him because staying with him helps me build my savings and he doesn't ask for much compared to living with family.

My mother thinks we are married but it couldn'tbe further from the truth. I don't share my challenges with my mother and sister because I left them to live with him and my mother didn't want me to leave and there is no chance I want to go back living with my mother and be restricted from doing things.

Everyone tells me I should leave him but where to go. I have never lived on my own and I am afraid to now. My friend restricts me too but he gives me some freedom that I didn't get before.

I have zoom meetings with my mental support group run by volunteers with mental illness but they don't want to hear my issues. I have to be careful with what I share. They don't know me and the more i share, their comments can feel offensive. I find that I can't rely on them for any kind of personal issues.

I am just struggling to keep my 2 jobs and build up my savings after not working so long. In my full time professional job, I have to sacrifice so much discomfort but my pay is decent. Because the pay is decent and I don't feel motivated to find another job, I feel stuck in my jobs.

I feel trapped. I only have one friend that I can talk and she is ill.

I don't know how life can get better. I don't have enough savings to feel secure.