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Old Jan 12, 2022, 08:50 PM
Sohappy Sohappy is offline
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Location: Canada
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Yes, it is stressful. I cried thousand tears but nobody cares. For a time recently, I had problems with my main job because they felt like I wasn't pulling my weight but I tried my best. My manager wanted me to go on medical leave but i knew i didn't want to. Because I was in trouble, I had to forget about all my other problems and just focus on doing my job well. I felt harassed because my new boss who was my coworker got promoted and he was complaining about me. And I had no motivation to apply for another job. It is good thing we are working from home but I am not one who can hide my emotions. My support grpup had told me to complain to them about feeling harrassed but I didn't want to do that because I knew it would only get ugly and I needed to show I was a professional. So, I avoided any mention about how I was feeling and I worked hard everyday and cried before and afterwards. I think it worked because my boss is not harassing me so much anymore. I just knew from past experience, that expressing how stressed I was feeling could potentially count against me and produce an uncomfortable work environment and it's hard to turn it around.

I had to be like robot like Data from Star Trek and only focus on facts. I don't love my job but it pays money. I don't love money either but it's a security blanket because I don't know how much longer I can keep working but I don't want to be struggling financially.

My 2nd job in retail I keep despite I have a decent job and they allow me to work a few hours because i have seniority. The reason I keep it because I know how important money is. And I hate applying for jobs. It took me a long time to get these jobs. I don't want to throw them away.
People tell me to quit this job but I am scared that if I quit, I wouldn't be able to get it back and it's hard to lose income even if it's a small portion. I know what's it's like to not be working and being treated miserably.

I am constantly fighting my emotions and not wanting to do my job or having to visit my family but having to do it anyways.