Today has not been good. I slept a long time on an empty stomach. I pulled myself out of bed at 7 but I was beyond cold and I knew I couldnt get in the shower right away. So I huddled on the recliner with a blanket for 45 minutes shaking until I felt like I could shower. I had the water turned so hot I'm sure most people would find it unbearable. Then when I was done I grabbed my towel and closed the shower curtain and dried off in the shower in the steam of the water.

Then I had brought my clothes in the bathroom and when I came out my mom was in her night gown and started *****ing at me about how we had to leave in 25 minutes and why didnt I wake her up. I thought my appointment was at 10 and why is it my responsibilty to wake her up anyways.

So then we made it to the doctors just fine and the nurse was really nice. But the doctor had an attitude like "why are you here? I took everything out your issue is not something that needs to be dealt with by me." Um, his RN gave me 2 suggestions on what the issue could be and told me to come in. But he said I could have a UTI or something intestional. He had me do a urine test and he's going to do a urine culture and he gave me 2 prescriptions for antibiotics.

Meanwhile I'm still incredibly exhausted and very cold and not very hungry and I have another headache. I also have money problems from the dentist and some medical bills and these Dr. copays and now these prescpritions. Plus I'll need more prescrptions this month from my pdoc. So I may have to dip pretty deeply into my savings this month.

Not to mention as I was fumbling with the urine sample the toilet was starting to overflow. So I was trying to put the sample in the bag, then in the metal door, then wash my hands, all while the water is starting to rise over the toilet. So I had to tell my mom to tell the lady at the desk about it. On top of all that when they called my name they misprounced my dead name very loudly in front of the crowded waiting room.

What a ****ing mess though. I have a primary appointment in a couple weeks maybe he can help me more then a specialist.