L, I'm in a really negative spiral today mostly because of work well that's what started it but then I found out my friend's toddler has COVID and now I'm just pissed the hell off at the world in general AND negative/sad. Plus I woke up with a stupid cold/headache myself today. I am having trouble pulling myself out of this. And finding that I don't even really WANT to pull myself out of it, as much as I hate feeling like this. I want to rip my copy of the Mood Elevator off my wall and set fire to the damn thing. I also hate that I am acting all Suzy Sunshine (like you called me) while working, and that is pissing me off even more that I can't let myself be how I ****ing feel.