This depression is unbelievable. And how quickly it came on after stopping vraylar! I wonder if it’s partly withdrawal. I mean I was on the lowest dose and it supposedly takes a long time to leave your system. But my stomach problems went away in a day so maybe.

I’m feeling so heavy. Like I can barely move. They let us go an hour early from work today bc we didn’t have the PD we were supposed to have. I’ve been glued to the couch since I got home. I have to leave in ten minutes to get my son and go to my booster appt. And we’re going to the diner with Rob’s parents after. I don’t want to eat. I feel like I could manage fruit or yogurt but this diner’s fruit cups are nasty (not fresh in any sense of the word). And they obviously won’t have dairy-free yogurt. I just want to go to bed.

My therapist is on vacation next week and my pdoc doesn’t come in until Tuesday. And when I called last week they didn’t have an appt until Thursday, which is probably gone by now. They’re closed today but they are supposedly open tomorrow from 9-3 so I might leave a message for her with the front desk. Thank sent it along last time.

I’m supposed to still be taking the vraylar twice a week so maybe when I take it tomorrow I’ll feel a little better by Sunday. But I might also feel physically ill. I guess we’ll find out.

It’s really at a crisis point already, I can’t believe it. I’m seeing images, I’m getting paranoid, the anxiety is out of control. I just want to cry.