It IS rather wily of you lot, thinking specifically about you. One of the things I've been thinking about lately, is along the lines of how much of your disclosures were designed to make me feel like I knew you and like the relationship was real so I would open up and talk and work through stuff I wouldn't have otherwise opened up about. I'm still working on being okay with all of that means-to-an-end stuff as I continue de-constructing my attachment to you.

Starting to get more comfortable with the more realistic idea that I truly did know a version of you, meaning I knew my experience of you. Just like that's really all anyone else can know too, is their experience of you. No one else is inside your head and can really "know" you. Not even your own T, I say that with conviction because you don't really "know" me either, you know your experience of me one hour a week. You have never seen me interact with my husband or family or friends and you know nothing of work-me or the me that participates in shamanic circles and trainings and stuff.


I'm not discounting the work you do. Not at all. I'm thankful and grateful for how much you have helped me change and become more the person that I want to be. I just wish there had been a less painful way for you to say what you said rather than "You don't know me." That was hurtful and I continue to feel the sting of it whenever I think about it.

But overall I remain thankful and grateful and will likely always feel warmly towards you. Maybe we'll run into each other in Costco again someday.

Oh, and I asked for guidance around a specific question this morning using the robin wood tarot and pulled one of the cards of the major arcana. It clearly answered my question. I'm getting a little better with this tarot stuff as I practice more.