I'm doing OK. I've been dealing with some family issues that last few days but things are going OK.I cancelled my therapy appointment this week due to the situations, which seemed to go over OK with her. To be honest, I was rather glad to cancel. I was dreading having it this week all together and well, I had an excuse to get out of it and I took it. Therapy is only as beneficial as you let it be. It was the right call to reschedule. Hopefully this week I will be in a better place to work on me.

It's a weird feeling, being "OK". I hope you all understand what I mean. I'm so used to either feeling awful, or feeling great. It was a very rare occasion things were just OK. When great, the smallest pleasures brought joy. When bad, nothing could make me feel good. Being OK -- I still can experience pleasure, but I have to play a much more active role in that. Perhaps I kinda understand why people stay on the go -- something to do to stimulate the senses. I unfortunately for almost 31 years have been a sedentary homebody so it's hard habit to break. Anyway, I'm just saying that feeling OK is a blessing, but also an oddity to me. All it boils down to is I have less concern over emotional distresses and more control over creating a better quality of life. It's a blank canvas ready for any paint I wish that day. I hope that makes sense.


The weather hasn't cooperated for me to go walking, but today I may just bear the cold nonetheless. We got a big snow coming. I really do like to walk -- perhaps my pacing the house will be a good alternative. Lord knows I've carved a path in the floor (metaphorically) from frantic pacing when upset. haha

Nothing really more to add today. No plans, I may read a book. I may take a second bath, but this time just to relax. Here's to just feeling OK everyday