Y'know L.... I miss the you-that-I-knew, the us-that-I-used-to-think-we-were. I don't know if that makes any sense to you or not, probably it doesn't, but it's how I feel. I mean it's not constant or bad or anything but at the same time, it's there and I notice it sometimes. Sometimes when I'm out walking and just looking out at the world-at-large it seems to look... I don't know... different somehow. Funny how you're the one person that I really would like to be able to talk with about this but... I gotta work within the boundary you set and since right now I don't want or need to see you weekly, it's out of the question. Maybe I'm just tired from working so much this month. I can have enough patience to wait and see if my feelings change after the overtime ends. I am tired right now. They're expecting a lot out of us at work this month and it's not just all the overtime, it's also the switching back and forth between and among the different responsibilities that we have had thrust upon us, at the drop of a hat. I can do it, I'm handling it, but it's tiring all the same. I'm very thankful that I work at home and not like in a doctor's office or a retail pharmacy that's for sure. I need to remember to be grateful, to have patience with myself, and keep reminding myself that this difficult month will be over soon. We're halfway there. I am reminding myself that February will be easier. And I set a reminder in my phone calendar to call you for a brief check-in in mid-March, 3 months after our final session. I don't know if I will still want to check in by then or not, but right now anyway, it's helpful for me to see that reminder on my phone. Right now, today, I am missing you.