I live with what you live with, but I apparently have Delusional Disorder. Diagnosed a year ago... I thought I could overcome the demons myself but a year on I have decided that I need to get therapy as my conspiracies are growing by the day, so much now that when I go for job interviews I suspect that the subjects of my delusions have contacted them and said that I am some weirdo, to destroy my chances. So to avoid the possiblities I give away no information to them about what's going on in my life. I wish things didn't have to be that way, it's not right, it's not me...

Ulimately I beleive my wifes freinds and family do not want me with her and will go to any extent to make it seem like I am crazy and so I get so paranoid that I leave her; making me the bad guy, not them. I confront them when I hear something said and they deny it, making me look even worse <font color="brown"> </font> . Now I can't go to parties where they around as I beleive everyone thinks I am a weirdo and that they are telling everyone I am. Somehow, somewhere down the line, I have gained a sixth sense where I interpret everything around me as being against me and is part of this plot to destroy my life, when someone comes round to visit, I am convinced they are putting cameras around the place, bugging the place and are going to plant some incriminating eveidence to get me arrested so that I am out of my wifes life. The only way I see out is to leave my wife and break all links with these people who make me feel this way, but what would life be without my soul mate, who has stuck with me through this paranoid time... I feel for her as we have only just got married and don't want to take her life away by distancing myself and her from her family and friends who I so deeply mistrust and who she so deeply loves...

I can totally understand the way you think, and as I am doing, I think Therapy is a good idea, I have done a lot of reading to try and understand what is going on in my troubled mind. I beleive I can, you can overcome it or at least minimize it, with a little help...

Self taught Conginitive Behavioral Therapy (CBT) techniques helps me function better in day-to-day life...