Just Xanax. I am taking it when I can’t stand the anymore. I hate taking it every day but it is what it is right now, right?

I think it’s withdrawal too, like maybe things will even out soon. I have a pdoc appt in three weeks. I may need her to refill the Xanax sooner though. I got my last refill way back in July and I just haven’t needed it much. I still have a decent amount, probably enough for three weeks even if I do take it twice a day like it says to do.

I’ve been just saying to myself that yeah, I feel ******, but I’m in control of my actions still and it’s ok to not be ok sometimes.

I mean, I made it through that vaccine appointment ok. Once I force myself up and out I’m not ok, but I’m a bit better. Just gotta hold on to that.

Thanks for the encouragement