oh... sweetie... this is so hard.... this "anxiety" - trying to put a "word" on it..

you know.. what a special person I think you are.. and I am so sorry for this difficult time...

when I started my career... I was anxious all of the time... I was a perfectionist...not because I wanted to be....

so after awhile.. I started dealing by saying.. I will always do the best that I can... that took a great deal of pressure off of me...because I know I am human.. and can make mistakes.. and things like that...

and when I raised my son.. I wanted to be the "perfect" mom too.. so by saying to myself.. "I will do the best that I can do"... again.. that took the pressure off of me....

I also started in my work... and especially with my son.. to concentrate on seeing something fun.. in what I was doing.. to find a "bit" a "piece" of fun.... so.. with really concentrating and over time - it took time.. I could find the fun.. and feel that instead of the pain...

(((hugs)))