How do others in this forum who have disabilities manage the feeling of being excluded by society and other people? I think it is only a realization that those with disabilities can comprehend. Why does society torment us?

Today in my college class a guy sort of made fun of my voice and laughed. I have a naturally quiet/ raspy voice from a tracheotomy operation I underwent as young child. I have always known I am different from other people, and I've tried not to make myself fully conscious of it, except in the instance when someone points it out like today.

I have held these feelings since I was in elementary school. I am different from other people. Alienation follows me everywhere I go. This isn't meant to be a
descent into a swamp of self-pity, but to ask if there is a way to improve one's situation.

I am attempting everything I can to integrate into society so that they perceive me as an everyday, successful person, I take care of my appearance by staying fit and wearing nice clothes. I have usual hobbies, hiking, investing, writing, shopping, and photography. I am currently in college trying to obtain a degree so that I can secure a well-paying, professional job, at least, I hope. I am doing everything society requests of me, yet it isn't enough, they still spew judgement at me. All I desire is to be accepted by other people. Every goal of mine, every aspiration and lifestyle change has been fueled by that one need.

The fact that I will NEVER be truly able to be accepted by these normal, privileged people deeply depresses me. I wish there was a way I could be accepted by society, but I fear my efforts will be in vain because they will always noticeably perceive me as strange.

Society and other people do not understand me, and I desperately want to change their perception of me. I am so strange and unusual compared to other people that I find myself contemplating if there is even a way to accomplish this.

Please let me know if there is a way to be accepted by civilization. Please share if you can relate to my turmoil. I'd like to know your story.