That session must have been helpful because I was really anxious before and now the anxiety is down to the usual amount which I can deal with. If you consider staying in bed all day dealing with it.

Or maybe it was that I took a couple gabapentin shortly beforehand because I was desperate. Doesn't usually help with my anxiety, but I guess it may have taken the edge off.

Anyway, I feel bad but better than earlier.

You should thank me for not telling you the plot summary for that movie. I really wanted to because it disturbed me so much, but you are more sensitive than I am so it would have been cruel. And I was telling the truth when I said I do sometimes have an emotional response and feel sad for other people. I think I just wish I didn't feel so callous and uncaring most of the time. I also told you I don't enjoy reading disturbing things, but I don't think that's 100% true. Maybe I don't enjoy it in the same way I do eating chocolate or watching derry girls... but there's still some kind of sick thrill or macabre entertainment I get from it. I actually think I could have read the plot summary for tumbling doll of flesh and been fine if I hadn't already read several similarly disturbing plot summaries in quick succession. It wasn't even the content so much as the fact that somebody came up with a movie like that and there was an audience for it.