Well after almost 7 years, He decides he wants out and ends our relationship. Not before he met someone in the bar and started spending time with her and hiding money to spend on her. He swears nothing sexual happened but at this point what real difference would that make. He has already lied, hid money, betrayed me, and was spending time with her behind my back saying he was doing other things. Not only that but I had been dealing with him having online relationships with women off and on for 2 years. I feel so stupid for trying to forgive him and move past it when he never stopped and had no intention of stopping. Even after he saw what it was doing to me he just kept it up. The last time I caught him, he was talking to 4 different women at the same time. About a year and half ago he suggested we go to marriage counseling all the while knowing he was still having a ldr with a woman. He was just lying to the therapist and myself the whole entire time. I feel so humiliated. Now I don't trust anything he says. Everytime I see him on his phone, which is all the time, he is using it.
The worst part is still being dependent on him. I have some health issues and have not been able to walk since August 14, 2020 when I fractured my knee cap and tore my medial meniscus. I'm waiting to have a total knee replacement but can't get cleared for surgery due to issues with my liver. I need him to get to my appointments and surgeries. I am currently stuck in a recliner in our bedroom which he has to help me out of and get everything I need. I am so humiliated everytime I have to ask for his help. He even said watching me day in and day out in pain got to be too much for him. He can't handle my health situation eventhough I fully explained everything before we even started dating. Plus this current situation is temporary. As soon as I get cleared for surgery, I will have my other knee replacement and be able to walk and drive myself.
As you can tell, we are still living together because we can't afford for him to move out on his own. I have no clue when we will have the money so this living situation is going on indefinitely which is killing me. He says he wants to keep things as normal as we can for the kids when he moves which is great for the kids but I don't know if I can handle seeing him at all. It's just going to hurt too much especially if he starts seeing other women. I don't know what to do. This is not how my life was supposed to be. I don't like this new life and I can't live this new life.
Sorry so long

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