I was ok until about noon. I had trouble right in the morning because I got wrenched out of a dream by my alarm, which was actually a good thing because it was a sort of flashback dream about the children’s state hospital I spent time in as a teen.

At noon sounds started stabbing into my ears and head. The English teacher’s voice was hurting me so bad, I thought I was going to have to leave and sit somewhere else for awhile. I started having SH urges and feeling depressed and irritable.

I still feel this way now with the added fun of images, although not SI ones. Just things trying to attack me. I really would like to be in my room in complete silence because even RS’s “like” sound on FB is messing with me. I feel like I should be wrapped up in my weighted blanket. I’m so hypersensitive I don’t want to hear anything or have anyone touch me. I want a pair of those noise canceling ear muffs my student has. My son is upstairs doing his usual “singing” and just generally making noise and I can’t stand it.

I’m supposed to make dinner which will be very easy as it’s just turkey sloppy joes made with manwich. Maybe I’ll throw some tater tots in the air fryer. I better do that and then we can eat and I’ll be absolved of my responsibilities for the night.